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someday you will understand

February 9, 2010

Much happens in our lives that we don’t understand right away.

We have conversations, we watch things happen, we see things in the moment. We think we understand.

  • A person is cranky. We think they are mad at us. Or that they just have issues.
  • A person moves slowly. We think they are lazy. Or incompetent.
  • A person starts laughing. We think they are irrational.

Later, we get more information. We find out that the person just lost a family member to cancer. We find out that the person is living with multiple sclerosis. We find out that the person has is wearing a bluetooth and just heard a joke.

Because we don’t wait for all the pieces, we get the story wrong.

Jesus creates a disruption in the temple, and then tells the leaders that if they “destroy this temple, I will raise it again in three days.”

We have no idea what the disciples thought in the moment. We don’t know whether they were appalled or delighted or amused or confused. What we know is what they understood later.

John says,

But the temple he had spoken of was his body. After he was raised from the dead, his disciples recalled what he had said. Then they believed the Scripture and the words that Jesus had spoken.

There are pieces of our lives that we do not understand. There is a disconnect between what we know that Jesus says of himself and what our experience says. It’s challenging to keep walking with him.

That’s what the disciples did. They understood pieces and they kept following, but they didn’t make sense of it until later. They lived with mystery.

They also lived with relationship. Because they knew Jesus, they didn’t have to understand him. Still a challenge. Still possible.

What does it mean to trust?

February 5, 2010

(Paul Merrill writes here every First Friday)

“Trust in the Lord with all your heart; do not depend on your own understanding.” Solomon, the man who many consider to be the wisest man ever, said that in Proverbs 3:5.

Jesus said trust is being like a child. Remember how it felt when you were learning to swim and you would flail about in the pool – and then when your parent swam over and lifted you up, you relaxed?

How can we trust in God when He is hard to see, feel? If we listen, the closer we will get to Him.

“All your heart…” We can’t hold anything back. If we have done something we know is wrong, we need to ask His forgiveness. And if that wrong involves someone else, we need to seek them out too. We can’t come before God with an unresolved conflict. True, there are exceptions to this. If that person is gone, we can’t find resolution with them. But God can heal that wound, if we ask Him to. It may take a long time for that healing to come – or it may come very quickly. In this day of instant results, we all get impatient waiting. (And the wound may not be healed in the way we expect.)

“Don’t depend on your own understanding.” I come back to swimming. Remember fighting the water? When you learned to let the water hold you up, you were able to glide across the pool. Depending on our own power can be like fighting God. We all go through life feeling like we know the answers. But the more we learn to trust, the better we can live and breathe.

Try relaxing in God’s arms, if you haven’t before. If you have, try actively trusting more today than you did yesterday. You’ll sleep better too.

God is bigger than all that

January 8, 2010

(Paul Merrill writes here every First Friday)

As the new year and the new decade begin, it is great to feel like we have a fresh start. That’s a wonderful thing. But how long will that feeling last? In a few days or weeks we may revert back to old thought patterns.

We are worried about financial pressures.

We are worried about our car needing repair.

We are worried that we may never pay off that mortgage – or get into a house that we are paying for.

We are worried about finding a job.

We are worried about pleasing our boss.

We are worried about how we should be spending more time with God.

We are worried about the state of our marriage.

We are worried about not being married.

We are worried about our relationships with our children.

We are worried about the health of our parents.

We are worried about not spending enough time with our family.

We are worried about not having very many meaningful and deep relationships.

We are worried about what we look like in others’ eyes.

We are worried that the number of hits on our website may never increase.

We are worried about the lack of influence we have over others.

We are worried about our health and not getting enough exercise.

We are worried about global warming, overpopulation and the state of our planet.

1 Peter 5:7 says,

“Give all your worries and cares to God, for he cares about you.”

Just speak them all to God. Let him handle your big and small worries. I’m not promising a magic bullet or instant change. Sometimes God will work the change within you rather than fixing the situation. And that can be even better. Sometimes the change may take a long time. Wait. God loves you and His love will be there.