you have to do whatever

It’s dinner time and no one had washed their feet.

Jesus was near the end of the pre-crucifixion part of his life. In a few hours he would face horrors most Americans can’t imagine and many Jesus-followers in the rest of the world have little trouble imagining. Thirteen people are gathered in the room to eat. There should have been fourteen, a servant to politely clean the dirt of travel off the feet of the guests.

But there was no servant.

Jesus slips over, grabs the bowl and towel, and begins washing feet.

In this moment, he is making their lives immeasurably more challenging. He is showing them exactly what it means to be a servant.

He serves the man who will in a few hours deny ever knowing him. He serves the man who will in a few hours turn him in to the cops. He serves the man who, three years before, laughed at his redneck roots. He serves the men who argued over which was most important.

He is washing the feet that will, in a few hours, run away from him.

And it isn’t like he didn’t know what these feet, these hearts, were going to do, because he told them what they would do. But he still washed their feet.

And it invites, always, questions. How did he do that? How do I do that? He doesn’t expect me to do that, does he?

Yes, he does.

He expects that we will, when we are with those who we are closest to, who we are most likely to treat with familiarity or disdain, drop to our knees and help them. Without a thought for our reputation or entitlement.

I know it’s hard. But he leaves the door open to ask, “how did You do that?”

understanding later

A friend of mine will have an awful day today.

I talked with her last night, passing on some counsel from a mutual friend.  As I said things, they matched perfectly with other things about her situation that she knew but didn’t understand, things I didn’t know about at all.  She finished the conversation encouraged.

That often happens. We are involved in a conversation. We say what comes to mind. It ends up being the perfect thing for the other person. We had no idea.

That’s how the disciples felt on what we know as Palm Sunday. They got a colt because Jesus said to. They started a parade because it seemed the thing to do. They shouted and sang and marched and laughed and cheered.

It wasn’t some big orchestrated Bible thing.

Except it was.

A prophet named Zechariah had written years before about the king showing up on a donkey’s colt. When John wrote out the story, he included Zechariah’s words. Then he said,

At first his disciples did not understand all this. Only after Jesus was glorified did they realize that these things had been written about him and that they had done these things to him. (John 12:16)

Jesus was living out a story that he knew well, that had clues seeded throughout the Old Testament. But the disciples were just living, not understanding that they were part of that grander story.

But here’s the cool thing. They didn’t understand the huge story at the time. But they knew that Jesus said to get a colt, and they did it. They followed him to Jerusalem cheering.

Sometimes we don’t thing we’re very important in God’s big love story. We figure that we’re just living.

Whatever.

But if you’re so moved, grab a palm. There are still parades.

Only human after all

(This repost is from September 29, 2009. I will be back tomorrow with new posts.)

Two disciples did exactly what Jesus asked them to do. A crowd guided him to Jerusalem. People in the city wondered who he was, wondered what all the noise was.

In one short story, we have lots of pictures of reactions to Jesus.

I have heard a lot of sermons, nearly fifty Palm Sunday’s worth, that talk about the fickleness of crowds. Those sermons look at this passage and then at the crowds calling for Jesus’ crucifixion and say, “see? the crowds are all just around for the fun, are just following the most popular – and safe – opinion.”

As I look at this story, however, I want to cut the people a little slack for three reasons.

1. The two disciples that did what Jesus said would also leave him at the end of the week. After three years, we might expect more, but then, of course, we would be ignoring what we see in our mirrors every morning.

2. Jesus knew there was going to be a parade, he arranged for the donkeys, he knew about the prophecy. He knew that there would be people getting caught up in the crowd. He knew that there would be people wondering what was going on.

3. Starting 8 weeks after this parade, the group of people who really follow Jesus is going to explode. Some of the people who are in this parade are going to discover that they were more right than they thought.

It is so easy to beat up people for their inconsistency, for their apparent abandonment, for their enthusiasm that is as much about the crowd as about understanding. We do it to others, we do it to ourselves.

God doesn’t, however. He arranged a parade for people who would cheer, boo, and kill him. And then forgave and blessed us.

So why do we have to ask? – a repost

(Originally posted on February 20, 2009)

[Matthew 6:7-8]

Sometimes I know exactly what our kids need. I can look ahead and know that they will be in that situation and will need that solution.

I know it. But I may not tell them.

Sometimes they decide to ask ahead of time. We can take care of their need.

Sometimes they come to me at the last minute. Maybe I can help, maybe I can’t.

Sometimes they come to me afterwards and say, “I should have asked.”

Why do I let them suffer? Do you think I’m a bad parent for not acting even if I’m not asked? Do you think that I should anticipate their every difficulty and even if they forget their homework assignment, should take it to school? Do you think that they will learn anything at all about taking responsibility for paying attention or will they merely take me for granted?

It is possible that sometimes I know what is going on and choose to wait for them to ask for help?

Is it possible that sometimes they ask for help and set in process the things that will help them and because they don’t see what they expect, they keep begging me to do something?

Is it possible that they spend enormous amounts of energy worrying about what I am already taking care of?

Is it possible that my action for their good will happen on my timetable rather than theirs?

It is possible that what they call “not caring” and what they call “ignoring” and what they call “not listening” and what they call “forever” are none of those things?

And if it is possible that in my wisdom as a dad, I act differently than my children expect but still for their good, isn’t is possible God does, too?

Please take care of me – a repost

(This originally appeared in a series on “The Lord’s Prayer” on February 28, 2009)

“You aren’t going to leave me, are you?”

When you are getting to know someone too good to be true, you have questions.  You acknowledge their greatness. You ask them for help. You acknowledge your weakness.

Then, after all that, as you are starting to relax a bit, you are suddenly seized with fear. What if they aren’t going to stick around? What if they aren’t going to follow through? What is they are going to be like everyone else we have ever known in our lives who sometime, someday, doesn’t come through?

We get so used to people who don’t keep their word, who let us down. We are familiar with the feeling of betrayal, of abandonment, of disappointment. We watch every leader we know prove to be human, at best.

And so, having made all our requests known, we stop and we say

“Don’t lead us into temptation.”

“Do deliver us from evil.”

God, please don’t bring us this far and leave us. Don’t bring us through the week and into the weekend and then leave us alone, facing temptation.

Don’t do to us what you did to your own son.

There it is.

We want to be able to trust God but we somehow can’t.  We look at what happens to people who follow him, who even are Him, and what we see undermines what we think should happen.

Jesus was led into the desert to be tempted by the devil. By the Spirit. Just two chapters ago. And Jesus survived the direct testing. Now he says, “Ask the Father not to do the first part with you, and to just do the second part.”

Maybe we don’t have to understand the theology to say these words. Maybe we just have to give voice to our fears.