You know what I’d love to give you? Some silence. I’d love to give you some time to stop and think and be still.
I’d love to give me that, too.
You are probably better than I am at stopping. Me? When I sit down to be still, it allows me to remember the things that aren’t done. It allows me to think about what I could be doing with this time. It allows me to fill the time with chatter. Or with clutter. Or with activity.
I wonder if part of the problem with the way I try to be still. I try to concentrate. I try to be quiet. I try to stop, so that maybe I can hear God and hear myself.
Here’s what’s interesting, however. When I decide to spend time with Nancy, I don’t talk about the need to be still. I don’t berate myself for my incapacity for not being with her. I don’t spend time not with her thinking I should be with her.
I go find her.
If I am having a hard time concentrating, I tell her. (And when I do, it usually comes as no surprise to her.) And I may ask her to help me remember something. And I may say, “can we walk and talk?” And I may say, “I’ll be back in 5 minutes.”
So here’s what I’m thinking. I’m thinking that maybe I should stop worrying so much about emptying my head and start working more on listening to and for Jesus. In the words of other people. In the words written for us by John and Matthew and others.
Maybe if I thought more about conversation with Him and less about being silent first, just like Nancy does, He would help with both.
Happy weekend, friends.
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