I am just starting to understand what it means to follow Jesus.
That’s what I tell myself regularly.
I don’t understand all that relationship means. I have so much that I haven’t taken seriously from the Bible. I often think, “I need to spend some time following that thread all the way through.” (For an example of what I mean by threads, read Testing God, where I trace a statement Jesus made back to Deuteronomy and then to Exodus.)
There are many other things that I could point to that are things that I wish I did better. But then I remember a conversation that I had with a friend recently. He said, “You already know this and live it. I’m just starting to understand it.”
My immediate response when people say that I know something better than they do is usually to say, “No I don’t. If only you knew.” But this time I didn’t say that. I thought about what he said. I realized that I have been thinking about what he was talking about longer than he has. I do have a little clearer understanding.
That doesn’t, of course, make me better. It merely makes me responsible for more. I have more to act on, more to live out. But it also makes me responsible to think about how I can help him learn what I know.
It sounds all humble to talk about ourselves as beginners. But it probably keeps us from explaining what we do know.
I don’t know as much about God as Billy Graham. But I probably do know more than some of the people who are reading these words. And if those of us who know something never explain because we don’t know everything, well, I guess maybe we don’t understand anything.