I wrote the title for this post back in April.
I never wrote a post.
I have no idea what the one thing was that I wanted to teach us how to do. I got distracted. I got disconnected. I got scared that I wouldn’t be able to figure out exactly the four steps or the six or the two.
It may have been amazing, that list. The strategies may have helped us change the world.
In the meantime, we’ve missed three months of magic. The world has been left unchanged.
The crises we have faced in the last three months are all my fault because cause I wrote the headline and never wrote the list.
You’re laughing at me. You’re saying, “one post couldn’t change the world, Jon.” You’re saying, “You worry too much.” You’re telling me that I am too much of a perfectionist or a procrastinator.
I know. But so are some of the people I run into.
The other day, I talked with a person having to make huge decisions. She knew she’d made bad decisions in the past. She wanted to measure up now, to do this right. She wanted to depend on God completely.
“You’re braver than you think,” I said as we walked down a hall. She looked at me curiously. “I want to be,” she said.
“You already are,” I said. “When I asked you what you were afraid of, you told us your story back in that room. You spoke your fears and failures to the people who had watched them and could attack you for them now. But you said them out loud. And that was brave.”
I saw her a few hours later. The decision was made. The crisis was passed. She was braver than she knew.
But I’m still praying for her. And you.
Because that one thing is still there, waiting.