(I wrote this awhile ago. I was telling the story recently and realized that you may find it helpful, too.)
Recently, I was having a hard time focusing when reading my Bible. I would open it and start reading and just not be able to concentrate.
It’s happened before, I think. It seems to happen every few years in fact. As I try to figure out what’s happening, I spend lots of energy trying to figure out whether I have too much going on, how to build better discipline, why I’m not measuring up.
My eyes are aging. I wear trifocals. I’ve discovered that having the large print has been a huge (pun acknowledged) difference.
I understand, of course, that there can be other reasons that reading the Bible is difficult.
We feel like we are walking into the middle of a conversation without having any idea of who is talking to whom. We feel like we don’t know what any of the words mean. We disagree with what a sentence seems to mean.
Unfortunately, all of those feelings are accurate. It is the middle of a conversation. We don’t, the first time through, know what many of the words mean. When taken individually, many sentences can seem to mean anything we want or don’t want.
But rather than deciding that it’s too hard or too complicated or too controversial, we could keep reading and find someone we can ask for help.
That is, by the way, part of the reason I am writing here. It’s a way of thinking through and praying through the text. To write, I have to reflect on what the characters in the middle of the text are doing as they speak and write. I have to listen. I have to interact.
And sometimes, I just look for larger print.