(First published October 18, 2010)
I know. I’m probably supposed to start differently than that, God. With a “Dear” or a “Most heavenly Father” or something. But it’s Monday morning and I’m tired from the weekend and I am absolutely convinced that when Peter talked to you, Jesus, he almost never started with “Dear Jesus.”
I don’t want to be like Peter, all argumentative. I know I am, but I don’t want to be. What I really want it to be able to hear you when I listen. But I can’t listen.
And this week isn’t shaping up to be a good week for listening. Meetings, travel, appointments, presentations. This is going to be a week. So I don’t want to be all demanding and telling like Peter, but I gotta tell you, I don’t feel like saying “dear.”
What I really want? I mean really? I really want a drink of living water because I’m tired of feeling so dry. I really want to rest, because I’m tired. I really want to know you. I mean really. So real I can touch, though I know and okay with the fact that’s not likely, at least not the hug you part.
(Although you understand the wanting to hug part, since you did make me with a need to be close.)
And I know that you offer people water and you offer rest and you offer peace. So on this Monday morning at the beginning of a busy week, help me be quiet. Help me stop drinking pop and be more thirsty for you. And help me be clear.
I’m asking as honestly as I know how.