“I lost the ability to worship God.” I said that to three close friends ten years ago, and it was true until very recently.
Worshipping God can take many forms, but I was referring to the “in church” variety – singing along with songs that are meant to focus on God.
My wife Heather and I made a big change. We started going to a different church, after being part of one fellowship for almost 14 years. It was not easy. Our 12-year old daughter was (and is) deeply entrenched in that church’s youth group. We have a lot of friends there. But we were dying because of our lack of being able to worship God. The music there was just not connecting with our souls.
We prayed about the change for at least two years before we left. Talking with the pastor of the church we were leaving was important to us. We did not take our decision lightly. We also made every attempt to be positive about our change to our friends from the church we were leaving. That was very hard, as we were at a serious internal breaking point.
My point in telling you about our change is this – if you are facing a real problem, seriously consider doing what it takes to make a big change. The cost may be high, but the rewards may be higher. Take your time, consider your motivations, and pray about it. Talk with others who can give you honest input. Then take the leap.
Every Sunday, we say, “Aaaah, yes!” And the real worship brings me to tears, almost every Sunday. It was worth it.
Psalm 92:4: “You thrill me, Lord, with all you have done for me! I sing for joy because of what you have done.”
(Paul Merrill writes here every First Friday.)