Swimming in grey

Sometimes I feel like I don’t have a clue. My two oldest kids are both in college now. They ask some really hard questions about life. Answers to those questions are harder to find than they used to be. So many things seem grey compared to what life was like during my younger days. Answers used to be so clear and distinct—so black and white.

One verse that gives me hope is what Paul said in Ephesians 1:18—“I pray that your hearts will be flooded with light so that you can understand the confident hope he has given to those he called—his holy people who are his rich and glorious inheritance.” God wants our hearts to be flooded with light.

In 1 John 1:5, John says, “God is light, and there is no darkness in him at all.” The grey that bothers me is not part of who God is nor of how God wants us to experience life. When I am swimming in grey, I need more of God. One simple way to get that is to read the Bible more often: “Your word is a lamp to guide my feet and a light for my path” (Psalm 119:105). Another way is to spend time with those who believe in God. They can encourage us to move closer to the light-filled life of seeking more of God’s presence. They can also help us to think about the grey areas we’re struggling with in a new light. (I had to use that word again.)

Finally, if you’re just feeling a lot of darkness and can’t seem to get away from it, ask Jesus to fill you with more light. “…the people who sat in darkness have seen a great light.” Jesus is the light of the world.

(Paul Merrill usually writes here every first Friday of the month, but this month, he’s writing on the second Friday. Sometimes change is good.)

2 thoughts on “Swimming in grey

  1. josephruizjr

    Sometimes gray brings me back to what is essential. We crave the correct answer, the right theology – these are important and they do have a place. Jesus said the greatest command is to love, for me this is most challenging in the gray. Thanks Paul.


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