“What are you afraid will happen?”
I wrote that in the shower a few months ago. I probably heard it from someone. It helps us drill down to the real issue in moments of anxiety and uncertainty and worry and fear.
Most of us have those moments. As we are ending the first six months of 2017 this weekend, we look back and think of the things we were afraid would happen.
Some of those things we were afraid would happen did happen. I stood with many families as they said their last words to a loved one. I have friends who did get the diagnosis they feared, who did get the rejection. For them, this has been a difficult six months.
But I also know that sometimes the fear isn’t about the diagnosis itself. The actual answer to the fear question is, “I’m afraid I won’t be able to handle it.” And we talk through how they could learn to handle the moments rather than the decade. We ask God for strength and wisdom and peace when the news comes, when the next step is needed.
And honestly, many of the things we feared didn’t happen. And some wonderful things did. Not massive lottery-winning like things. But moments of thoughtfulness. Moments of insight. Moments of an awareness of the presence of God in work well done.
As I look back over the last six months, I have watched very many of you make it to today with humility and perseverance and struggle and honesty. I have listened to you weather external and internal challenges and survive.
And so spend some time this weekend doing the thing that gives you life (not distraction) and strength (not obligation) and peace (not denial).
I know that some of you will say, “But I’m afraid that if I do X will happen.” I’m more afraid of what will happen to you if you don’t. And I’m excited about what might happen with you as you have that little bit of refreshment.
I discovered “Rite in the Rain” notebooks a few months back. I now keep a page in the shower to capture the thinking that happens there. I get them from RainWriter. I’m sending samples to sustaining subscribers this week.